I hope not to be killed in an embarassment
of bombs, caught on a mountain road
lovely for a Spring ramble, torn already
from my home sky. Pray for the souls of,
if collateral blessing can be of use,
if those that are left can bear it from us.
Where are the paintings of previous cleaners?
Around the walls of the undercroft I can't see them
behind the brooms and buckets and toilet rolls.
Where are Sandra, Helen and Bob's predecessors,
posed in a chair, hands folded on their laps
or holding their mop of office?I don't see them here.
A dose of crypt
He's had his dose of crypt,
a quick in and out,
carrier bag on the seat,
sat down on the seat beside it,
looked,
it seemed looked hard
ahead, a single focus,
one shoulder bent,
this is it, this is an it
sort of experience, an it
sort of place, then up again
and out. Now I have
written this
and I, too, am up and out,
having had my dose.
Each of us knows in part,
we cannot know precisely
what anyone else knows.
When we are born
God is born, let's say,
but remembers only dimly
who God is, what it means
to be God. And what's
in a name, call God
Harish or Don, Tracey,
Deborah, Claude or Evan,
these are God's names now.
If you would care to wait a few minutes only
I will fetch the box of tricks
if you understand me,
sit by the window, I suggest, patiently,
but with your back to it
and play with your tongue
rolling it around your teeth
and smooth your foot along the floor,
how long is it now
since the crucifixion? The applause
I suppose has died away,
do help yourself to chocolates,
you may need the sugar,
I want to laugh sometimes, then more,
for no reason I can think of.
Remember me to your friend,
the one in the passport office,
tell him I know all too well
his litttle game his sleight of hand.
Ta, we have
just fucked
in your church.
I hope you
enjoyed it
without guilt.
Why do you
think we
did it here?
I am sorry
it cannot have
been comfortable.
Doing it is
doing it
is doing it.
Next time ask
and we will
provide some cushions.
Who do you think
you are fucking
making fun of?
Holy the frolic
and relish
of two bodies.
Don't come
your smart-arsed
talk with us.
It would be good now
to talk with fish again
and to the sea itself
and to the indifferent sand.
I am in too much
argument with myself,
I have been too fractious
with myself, as if
carving words on a wall
would tell me
what was the other side of it.
I spoke to gulls last week
but far from home,
far from the breathtaking sea.
I need to talk with fish again
and with the sea itself.
"Let's open a shop", said Wulfstan,
"haven't we shapely off-cuts of Hollington and Hurdcott with fossils,
haven't we draft manuscripts, Brother Floreat's mistakes?
We could sell candles, we are good at candles,
we could sell beefy oakcakes and fresh goats' milk,
we could sell quail's eggs and seed corn.
And relics, don't forget the relics, such as we have
or might reasonably be thought to have, lookalike bones,the rapture of snippets of fine embroidered linen -
some even with remnants of name tags - and apostles' boots, cockleshells,
remnants' of staffs, hairs from Christ's own Palm Sunday donkey,
all, if they believe, for the good of folks' souls.
We could sell post-Millennium badges: We have come through,
and why hasn't anyone had the idea of little drawings
of our new building, set out on slices of parchment,
gifty sort of things? Our Crypt and Chapter House, for example,
wouldn't people buy pictures of them?"
I must let you go, God of dreamy, wide-eyed William Langland, poet,
and to your God, too, Mr William Tyndale, over from Gloucestershire
on your way to candling the language and to be yourself kindled.
It isn't hard to let you go, God of Guilio de Medici, in the 1520s
bishop here for two years, nominated but never enthroned, too busy
being Archbishop of Florence and Narbonne
and being son of Lorenzo the Magnificent and being nephew
of Pope Leo X, until you became busy being pope yourself
as Clement VII, and became busy then refusing or over breakfast
waving away Henry VIII's divorce from Catherine of Aragon
who had been married before to the king's brother
who still lies here. Breathless I can let go of your God.
Goodbye to the God for whom you, Thomas Cranmer, who preached here,
went to the stake, and yours, too, Bishop Latimer, who preceded him
who had for God ordered out Our Lady of Worcester. Goodbye to the God
of Edward Oldcorne, SJ, down the road at St George's RC
martyred 1606 at Red Hill. And to yours, Dean Juxon, who in fear or pride
or both attended Charles the First at his execution
and preached when Charles II came back from exile. And goodbye
to your God, Bishop Hooper, burned at Gloucester.
Goodbye to your holy reasons, Queen Mary Tudor, here with Cardinal Pole,
gloating I suppose, and goodbye to your sister, Elizabeth's holy reasons,
coming through the north door under a canopy
to see her uncle Arthur's chantry.
And goodbye to your God, Richard Edes,
as you begun to hum with reform, to suggest your own watchful words
for the new translation, suddenly extra-episcopal 1604, taken by death.
Need I let you go, God of the third George, as you listened here
to the trumpet sounding and to the Glory of the Lord
and to the Alleluia and to the Amen from the Three Choirs?
Goodbye to the God of your conviction, Thomas Harris, fifty-eight years
in the wilderness, waiting still and for ever at the miserimus door.
Llewelyn the Last ap Gruffydd, Prince of Wales, at this boundary
from beyond the west bank of the Severn in enemy territory,
a prince now in name only, what did you mean by God - Duw -
when here in 1278 you married Eleanor, Simon de Montfort's daughter ?
What did you pray, Llewellyn, to God - Duw - when you blundered
into death on home territory? What did the king say to God
when at Rhuddlan he received no doubt with laughter your head?
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Goodbye to your God, William Temple, meeting here
Geoffrey Studdert Kennedy,
A POET, A PROPHET, A PASSIONATE
SEEKER AFTER TRUTH, AN ARDENT
ADVOCATE OF CHRISTIAN FELLOWSHIP,
Goodbye, God of the trenches. Goodbye, God of Woodbines.
Goodbye, Anne Ken's God, wife of Izaak Walton, Anne in the Lady Chapel,
who lyeth buryed 1662
soe much as could dye,
her primitive piety celebrated,
her great and general knowledge,
her remarkable prudence.
Goodbye twenty-seven year old Grace Thorp's God,
HE WHOSE SPIRIT BREATHES THE AIR DIVINE
THAT GIVES TO SOULS THEIR LOVELINESS AND GRACE,
SOONEST EMBOW'RS PURE FAITHFUL HEARTS LIKE THINE
IN HIS OWN PARADISE THEIR BLISSFUL PLACE,
Goodbye to the God of the men listed here who
died of wounds
or just died or fell
in the South African War,
in the Sikh Wars,
and in two World Wars.
Goodbye to the God of Charles Gore declining Hartlebury to live instead
in what is now the Loch Ryan Hotel - on the site of the last battle
of the Civil War. Goodbye to the God of your new diocese of Birmingham
on whose lawn you stand now in all earthly weathers.
Goodbye to the God of Matilda de Clifford who went well-folded,
rosary well in hand, demurely, I mean innerly so still, so ready,
with your small, thin, pinched lips, wound in by a wimple.
Goodbye to the God of the singles-in-death club in the quire:
John, Arthur, the Duke of Hamilton, and such shrined bones
as may have been stowed away of Oswald and Wulfstan.
*
All over, the dressing up,
all over, the bells and smells,
I liked that dance.
I grieve for somewhere else to be,
a place where no wailing monody
stifles the lament and fire
of silence. And for the choir,
I grieve for music's argument
as demanding or lenient
as I could bear and a bit more.
I grieve intent
other than in my own heart.
See what this place is,
the chairs speak of numbers,
the height speaks of extravagance
or call it wealth, or it's bravado,
or it's a surreal antidote, the length
speaks of an allocation
of distance until the holy
can come into view and touch,
the tangibles of it. The tombs
speak of the paid-up dead, lonely
for never having belonged on the floor
of the cornmarket. The stone
smells flat now, no gloss on it
for the eyes either, no eyes in us or nose
for the hiddenness. What we see and smell
is what there is.