I am the one you've been looking for,
The singular first person
Here at the death.
The square-ended shout
Has gone up from the stand,
So the Duchess's Cup has raced
Into the records again
In a thunder of wall-eyed no-hopers
And foul-mouthed effeminate midgets in silk,
While round at the back of it all, in the sheds,
Among mowers and oildrums, down on my knees
In a doorway of sunlit Victorian dust,
I done it. I mean, I done this one.
I lie in my caravan, feeling it rock
On its bricks by the abattoir. Windy.
I'm scanning Reveille for creatures like me,
The bad apples of Lustgarten's eye,
From the class that has feeble excuses and onanists' tremors,
The work-shy, enthralled by America,
Reached by race-music picked up at the fair
With the clap and the ravenous
Oil-based charm that makes us at home
Among engines in pieces and under the skirts
Of your daughters. Our sort
Are barbers and butchers gone bad
From a failure of deference.
I do hope you're writing this down
And ignoring my fraudulent idioms.
They look for a soldier. They fancy a Yank
Off the airbase. So let them.
Come rain on the roof, come wind,
I lie here and rock. I'm awful. I've sinned.
To be continued...